I'm back

Alright, back from a long break. Well, basically the trend is twitter and facebook. Gone are the days where people actually bother to write a worthy post. Well, that's a post for another time.

So see that last post below? Well, from that period, to now....
11 months....
I've basically plunge into darkness, screamed in despair, fell into the devil's hand, almost stopped going to church entirely, and isolated my social life. All because of my results on that faithful day.
Then somewhere around august, my life turned. God pulled me out of my sorrow, and put me back on my feet. I'm still reeling from the aftermath, but it took one hellish experience before I realise that god CARES.
I'm still sinning, still doing the same old wrong thing I've been doing.
But I woke up.
Life's that simple.
What happened isn't going to change.
And it never will.
So Move on.
I'm done with superficial relationships.
I'm done with friends that can go from best mates to just hi-bye.
but this first post shouldn't be about ranting. I can't be bothered to delete my previous post.
And that just made me realise that is what life is. You can't hit backspace.
Once you write it down, it's THERE.
The smart thinks of what to write.
The smarter realises what the smart writes, and writes it anyway.

So anyway, i did want to put this up. As a little reminder for future endeavors.

I went into army, and got a shitty vocation. No kidding. A shitty one.
So I prayed in bunk when nobody's looking.
I prayed and prayed.
And finally one night, I started to wonder if God was really listening.
So I turned away from him.

And that's when God called me back.
He reposted me to Intel.
Got me my dream vocation at a dream location.
Got me better friends than the last in BMTC
and gave me the opportunity for a second shot.

Everything was perfect. I couldnt think of anything worse.
If there was one thing I knew god was working in my life. It was this. I didn't get lucky. Perfect sounded more like God.

So if you ever stumble upon this post.
I want you to know that I have nearly commited almost every sin I vowed not to commit.
Gone through hell.
But got saved at my darkest moment.
I OWE this to god. I OWE him one.
Stop deluding yourself with visions of failure.
Even the intellectuals don't have the answer to everything.
So don't be dishearten.
You're alright.
As long as you don't lose believe.
You won't lose hope.